Saturday, June 6, 2009


enough is enough where do you go....

I once did a monologue from
"for colored girls who considered suicide when the rainbows enough"
(side note: quotations "-" recognize quotes from the monologue)

"lady in yellow: my love is too delicate to have thrown back on my face.
lady in brown: my love is too beautiful to have thrown back on my face.
lady in purple: my love is too sanctified to have thrown back on my face.
lady in blue: my love is too magic to have thrown back on my face.
lady in orange: my love is too saturday nite to have thrown back on my face.
lady in red: my love is too complicated to have thrown back on my face.
lady in green: my love is too music to have thrown back on my face."

I was the lady in YELLOW but I draw parallels with all these women
Ive wondered if I deserve die.......
would I be happier in heaven {{of course}}
or bcuz i was born in a life of sin would I go to hell.....
but my mom would miss me too much

I can't seem to figure out if everything that has been served to me is
its to happen
if I bought it upon myself :-(

It took me years to be comfortable in myself
build myself up and enjoy my life on my own terms

"i found god in myself& i loved her / i loved her fiercely"
After everything EVERY MAN has put me though..
from my father to my last boyfriend
I realized never settle for less than the best someone can give
"one thing I don’t need
is any more apologies
i got sorry greetin me at my front door
you can keep yrs
i don’t know what to do wit em
they don’t open doors
or bring the sun back
they don’t make me happy
or get a mornin paper
didn’t nobody stop usin my tears to wash cars
cuz a sorry."

I'm happy at this time in my life bcuz I did what
I NEEDED to do FOR ME and no one else!!!!
Enough is enough and

We all got dreams and we all star reaching, all star peaking, all-star weekend(Drake)

1 comment:

  1. it's easy to say it t poppins . . .
    the difficult part is believing what you write . no doubt in my mind you do , but just know

    just like track and field ,

    self liberation takes practice , and application .
    go get your happiness . fck .